Vanilla-Xtract

My slave writes, July 8, 2009:

Lately her writings have been a little bit deep and thoughtful, she would like to hope that in some way insightful, although she is not the one to judge that! However, what all of these writings end up doing for her is increasing her awareness of her slavery, very intensely and in turn increasing her awareness of Master, and her need to make Him feel that sense of control and Dominance. That leads on to her feeling ever more aroused, wet and needing to touch herself.

Yesterday, she realised she loves being a horny slut, she revels in it. Well, to be correct she likes being Master’s horny slut. Hearing her Master utter those words – calling her ‘His horny dirty slut’ is quite something! But, she wants to be more, sometimes she wants to shock and surprise Him! Not quite sure how she can achieve that but certainly something to think about. she loves making Him hard, teasing Him, especially when He is away from home, at the coffee shop, on the street. she loves the image it conjures up. hehe. she likes being dirty and horny. she has found that in opening herself up more and more verbally has also meant that she is more comfortable on camera. More than anything her desire is to please Master and part of that is to keep Him hard. If she can do this from a distance just imagine what she can do in person! Now the pussy is very wet and aching just thinking about it, delicious.

she is antsy to be much better so she can surprise Master, so when He turns on the cam, she can be ready and naked, kneeling, open and ready for Him. That is what she needs more than anything. Or to be used as He did the other day, where she was naked, on display, pussy open and wet but not allowed to touch or play with herself and made to watch Master as He masturbated until He came. It was the ultimate feeling of being used, of being objectified so that He could have enjoyment and pleasure and oh my god did she love it. She was dripping wet, just watching Him cum it was all she could do to control herself, took lots of willpower.

Sometimes she goes on a trip in her mind, of what would be hot to do, but it may be something that she previously had reservations about because of nerves or shyness. One time last year Master mentioned about girl being on voice cumming in a group in SL – she was shocked and resistant! Now, however, she thinks it sounds very hot, performing and making her Master proud of her and that she thinks could be in any arena that Master decides upon. What a change around.

Master’s horny slut, mmmm she loves it!

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/// © Master Zoomer
/// “His horny dirty slut”
/// June 14, 2010
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To: Master
From: girl
Subject: accomplishment
Date: 9 April, 2009

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xoxoxoxo

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/// © Master Zoomer
/// “Music for Master”
/// June 11, 2010
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Written by My slave, 5 July 2009

She felt an urge to write again, funny but the desire isn’t there every day, but perhaps the more she does the more she will have a need to?! Also interesting that even though she is feeling unwell somehow the writing helps focus her, makes her feel better.

Master has been wonderful, oh gosh way way more than that, so many adjectives to describe Him! During her illness she feels Him close, feels His re-assurance and His love and his care. Master always makes her feel better just by His presence, He gives her great strength and she is grateful to Him for that. Sometimes she wishes she had the vocabulary and grammar to adequately describe just how powerful her feelings are for her Master. The point she is trying to make is that love is almost too difficult to verbalise. Its an emotion, a feeling, deep within oneself. All she now knows is that He is the centre of everything, He means the world to her, she worships and loves Him with a deep intensity and it just gets stronger and stronger. All of this is possible because of Him. Because of how He is. A Master who had the capacity to make her need and want to be more and more submissive, He drew something out of her, something that had always been there, He awakened that and this girl fell in love with Him. In doing so, HE has changed her life completely, never has she felt so good or positive about herself, she is completely happy.

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I challenged myself to carry My slave into subspace and back again. I didn’t hold anything back, and I had a commitment to the intensity of my delivery and the content of what I said to her. I didn’t record the words that I said, but the beauty of how my words impacted her have been recorded here. I challenged her. I spoke to her as a Master should. I took her into subspace over the phone. She listened, she absorbed, she flew. Then I pulled her back and told her to write about her experience. You can understand what I said by reading her response. You can feel her emotions, and her growth.

The following is the unedited email from My slave, 12 July 2009:

Master,

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My slave is such a good girl. I’ve had nothing but a wonderful experience training her. She’s very receptive to anything I teach, and it sometimes is a challenge to stay two or three steps ahead of her. These days, I search for challenges. But when we met, I had already learned many things from my exploration of the world of BDSM or D/s. In particular, I was fascinated with how I felt when the slave would speak of herself in the third person. Of the many things I found to be arousing, I knew that this was something that would be a reminder of her position as a slave/sub, and my own as a Master/Dom. And it was something that she could be trained to do. I wanted her to do this all the time, but more importantly, I wanted her to do this naturally, without thinking. It would create a mindset, and I would know whether or not she was in “slave mode” just by listening to her. It was a speech protocol that could be used to measure her sense of submission to me at any given moment. I never reprimanded her for lack of use. Instead, I told her how arousing it is to me. I suggested that it might be arousing to her as well. She was surprised to hear this, when first introduced to the concept.

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Making a girl suck cock is like being selfish. When a girl gives head, is she giving me a gift of some kind? What that implies is that it’s hers to give. It is to say I should be grateful that she’s now sucking me hard until I cum. I might just take it whenever I can get it, and that depends on when she wants to give it. So therefore, if I were to wish to be in control of this situation, it could mean I might need to manipulate or seduce her into performing such an act.

So does control have anything to do with getting the girl to blow me?

In a vanilla world, yes, but from that lens only.

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I could never attempt to describe how she feels about me as her Master. But as her Master I can demand that she tells me how she feels and I can insist that she do it in writing. The collar I ordered was just days away from reaching her, and I assigned her to write to me about her submission. There are many things that I know about her that she doesn’t realize for herself, and this writing assignment was to bring it all to the front of her mind, to create something that would record how she was feeling at the time.

I knew that this was what she needed to fully know how she felt inside. She needed to hear herself speak about it in her own words. She had already emotionally submitted to me in so many ways, and I knew it. The physical distance between us I refused to allow to hinder her growth or my own. The writing assignment I knew was a milestone and it was one that we could both treasure reading in the future. But it’s primary purpose was to get her to reveal to me, and in turn, herself, the feelings that she had about her position as my slave, and having me as her Master.

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I just got an idea for how I’m going to treat you when you’re here.

There are times when I need to chill, or think, or do something that might look like I don’t want you around.  Sad? Not at all. Look at it this way: I am very comfortable keeping your cam up while you sleep, because it’s peaceful to watch you like that. It calms me.  When you get here in July, I will enjoy you for every moment that I get to have you with me. That means always.  I don’t have a desire to do anything without you. However, there are things I do alone when you’re there, like chill or think or write, or something. And the same goes for when you’re here.

What will I do with you when it’s time for me to have my alone time?  I will put you in the cage, wherever it is. It’s a foldable cage, large enough inside to sit or lie down. This makes it easy for it to be carried and moved to anywhere in the house where there’s room.  The best example I can think of is right here in the living room.  I am drafting this piece of writing right now from my couch. I think I’ll put you in your cage on the floor right in front of the big window with the curtains closed.  If you’re noisy or disturb me in some way, I might need to open the curtains to make you keep quiet and still in your nakedness, so that you don’t get noticed from outside the house where they can see directly into this room.

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