Master is my purpose
Posted in journal on June 12th, 2010 by Sir ZoomerThis email was sent by My slave 13 July, 2009.
Master,
Just felt the need to put a few sentences down following on from yesterday. Hope that is ok.
Love You with such an intensity hard to put into words Master. I (am using I – ha) think that something came from yesterday, am not fully sure what except a greater understanding of what i am. There was that element of being faced with thinking she was worthless and she had to work through that, that was a totally separate facet to all of this. Almost like a red herring when looking back – cos she knows she isn’t worthless, she knows she has value, especially to her Master. But, she knows without Him she is nothing because He is everything to her. There was a lot going on in the girl’s head she thinks upon reflection, more than she thought at the time. How i fit with You. Maybe that was part of the shock? Not shock in a bad way please understand, just a dawning. That realisation and an intense realisation of her reliance on You, her dependence upon You, her trust in You. Sure, before she had always known that and when she said the words ‘Master is my purpose’ and so on, she truly meant them – yet there was some sort of awakening, dawning. This is 100%. This man has control, i have given Him control and i am happy doing that. To say that sounds like there was resistance before and it wasn’t 100%, thats not the case Master. It’s hard to explain, but it just feels like more awareness of her slavery, a deeper understanding. Hm. That this is about everything, her entire being. She gives Him everything and saying that she really truly can feel it even more. Yesterday she thinks she felt her slavery like no other day and today she feels good mentally. Hope this is making sense and not rambling?