Vanilla-Xtract

Written by My slave, 5 July 2009

She felt an urge to write again, funny but the desire isn’t there every day, but perhaps the more she does the more she will have a need to?! Also interesting that even though she is feeling unwell somehow the writing helps focus her, makes her feel better.

Master has been wonderful, oh gosh way way more than that, so many adjectives to describe Him! During her illness she feels Him close, feels His re-assurance and His love and his care. Master always makes her feel better just by His presence, He gives her great strength and she is grateful to Him for that. Sometimes she wishes she had the vocabulary and grammar to adequately describe just how powerful her feelings are for her Master. The point she is trying to make is that love is almost too difficult to verbalise. Its an emotion, a feeling, deep within oneself. All she now knows is that He is the centre of everything, He means the world to her, she worships and loves Him with a deep intensity and it just gets stronger and stronger. All of this is possible because of Him. Because of how He is. A Master who had the capacity to make her need and want to be more and more submissive, He drew something out of her, something that had always been there, He awakened that and this girl fell in love with Him. In doing so, HE has changed her life completely, never has she felt so good or positive about herself, she is completely happy.

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